Sunday, June 10, 2012

The spirit.

Down with fever since Saturday noon. I am all fine with teary eyes and aching muscles but the one which i cannot tolerate is the constant dizziness and bad headache which makes me nausea throughout the day. Spent most of the day in bed. I did get up for an hour or so to read the textbook but guess i wasn't feeling too okay to absorb a single thing (which explains why i have to re-read the chapter a while ago)

Perhaps because i am sick, i keep having negative thoughts. It dampens my motivation a lot. By a lot, i mean, really so much that at certain points, i wanted to give up. I wanted to just let the paper flunk, giving myself reasonable excuses to support my action. 

Then, i remembered how i used to work and study at the same time. There's once i did my assignment till 5am and slept for 2 hours and rush off to work. Was so tired, i broke down and cried, but never once did i give up. It was just months ago, why cannot i do the same for now?

Since i am sick, i will be giving myself a break for tonight. Will continue to work hard tomorrow when i am feeling better. I shall not give up.